as i was washing my hands in the kitchen just now.. i saw an ant crawling arnd the table that was in front of me.. since i loathe insects.. (yes, even ants give me the creeps) i just stood in front of it and gave it a blow, thinking that it would fly away to some place else so that i won't be able to see it anymore.. but after i gave my 1st blow, the ant still stood there.. and i was like "eh?! how cum it din get blown away??" so i decided to try again and gave it a really big blow! but it still stood there!! i could see that as i gave it my biggest blow, the ant's puny legs were still so strongly attached to the table even though its body was tilted slightly due to my blow..

then it occurred to me.. the ant may be puny and insignificant.. but it sure is strong! so i had this revelation..

many a times in our lives we may feel lousy about ourselves.. small or insignificant.. its like, we can never stand out.. we can never outshine the others.. but lets be like the ant, keeping its feet firmly planted in the ground.. in times of adversaries or when we are surrounded by giants.. lets stay strong! no matter how hard the wind blows, we gotta keep our feet and hearts planted in God.. keep holding on..

i thank God for this revelation that came at a perfect timing.. because sometimes when i dance.. i feel like i'm not good enuff.. like what i told khye, insignificant.. nobody notices.. even if i get noticed.. its all for the wrong reasons.. example: actions lack of energy. =\ but its not like i never tried to improve.. since this year's Emerge Talent Time.. many people have commented on my actions being small; lack of energy.. i've heard it a million times.. and i wanna stop hearing that.. i really tried to execute my actions with energy.. but its still not good enuff.. -sigh- i feel so stagnant in my dance.. and sometimes, i begin to doubt myself.. am i really called to dance for God in project o? was it just wishful thinking? was it all just an accident that i managed to scrape through the auditions and dance exam? was it?? so many thoughts came running in my head.. i felt so discouraged, defeated, confused.. but God is indeed faithful.. He sent people in my life to encourage me.. to support me.. then as i prayed, i felt His peace and His reassurance =)

God is behind the events of life.. when we consider or pray about what God might want to do in our lives, remember that God's plan will always include tasks that we'll not be able to accomplish without His help. Making a difference isnt just about wad we can do.. its about wad God can do with us, in us, and through us!!



I've got a dreamI've got the Holy Ghost on me

i see the futurein your eyes