two days ago.. i suddenly felt very lousy about myself.. in the area of dance cuz i still cant see my breakthrough.. felt so stagnant.. then, alot of negative thoughts filled my mind.. i questioned God.. asking Him if i was really meant to dance.. if so, why am i not improving? instead, i feel like i've deproved.. my faith and vision was shaken.. i felt so helpless.. and i cried my heart out.. i needed assurance.. i needed to know if i'm on the right track.. but that day, God seemed so distant..

but today, i realised that God was there all along.. He heard me cry out to Him.. He knows how discouraged i am.. and He showed His faithfulness once again.. am really blessed by today's cellgroup meeting..

i was totally blown away by the message.. it then occurred to me that i cant lose sight of my vision no matter how tough the circumstances.. even caleb had to wait 40years until he could see the promises of God.. and in the process of waiting, despite of not seeing God's promises.. caleb remained faithful.. he held nothing back and gave God his all.. indeed, God isnt interested in our comfort.. He is more interested in our character.. and i know that as i'm undergoing this process.. God is moulding me.. helping me be a stronger person.. and now that i'm certain of my vision.. i will be strong.. i'm not gonna give up on dancing just like that.. its not gonna be easy.. but i'm certain that the day will come for me to see God's promise for my life being fulfilled.. and i know that all the hard work is going to be worthwhile :))

isnt God simply awesome? He is so real.. He is always there.. His timing is always perfect. He will never shortchange us.. wow~ Lord, i'm really in awe of You..

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mmm.. just some thank you's to my darlings..

Chewie! thanks for ur concern on wednesday in the white studio.. thanks for listening to my probs.. thanks for sharing my burden.. thanks for the hugs.. u're such a sweetheart.. appreciate it lots babe! lets jia you together k! i've got ur back and u've got mine! it'll be easier to face challenges in life with friends like u ^-^ *loves*

Pui! thanks for always making me smile whenever i'm down.. u truly have a way with brightening up people's lives.. and i thank God for such an o-some lefty tribal ah lian sista! =D u're also always there to hear me out.. to share my joy and burdens.. thank you so much! u have no idea how much this friendship means to me.. love joo plankie!

Khye! hahaha~ wad more can i say? u're always there.. literally! its like whenever something bad crops up.. u're definitely right by my side.. talk about perfect timing.. heh. u were there when i was down.. you spoke words of encouragement that really enlightened me.. you're willing to sacrifice time to practice dance with me.. you keep me in prayers.. you feel my burden.. you cry with me.. you buy me chocolates just to put a smile on my face.. haha. i doubt that i can ever find another like you.. thank you, for everything :))

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anyways, here are some random photos..